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JESSIE J-WHO YOU ARE

    She is so amazing!

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Tamarquis and I :)

-May 9, 2011.

Update-Hello!

Sorry, I have not Blogged in forever.
I've been very busy.
So lately what I have been doing is playing Softball, hw, and family. I never feel like I have time for myself, I kinda wish I did.
I have been irritated with my positions in SB lately. Playing catcher, 3rd base, 1st base, and pretty much outfield. Now, almost everyone on my team is wanting me to play as pitcher. -No thanks.

HEY YOU!

Hey Blogger.com,

Some crazy stuff happened today in class, classmates arguing about "Life sucks".( Oh and by the way, theses are immature kids). My classmates were talking about being a Foster child is stupid and they rather AWOL (Absence without leaving) then stay here. If they ever open their eyes and look around the world and see how many people don't even argue and complain when they have everything to be alive. Also, the support and love you get from where we live. SO what if you are a Foster kid?! Your life does not have to suck just because you're one.

You have to be optimistic and stop stop! Please, stop complaining. At least you have a place to stay, warm bed, fresh food, and people who cares and loves you. This is what some of the students here say, "I don't want to be here, this place sucks"! REALLY!? If you are out there in the real world, you think people out there would support and care for you like they do here? Well, you're dumb if you think so. ANYWAYS >.<

This is how I see my life.--- I am a foster kid, lives without my family-but I get to visit them on the weekends, have food, a place to live, I barely have to pay for anything at all, education, support and people who love and cares for me. I am happy. Why make your life sound so bad when you have everything? Plus, living without my family near me...made me such a stronger person. Also, I started to understand the world, the people who have to struggle to save their family and they don't give up. And it makes me feel like, WOW! There are amazing; wonderful people out there and people who need money and food, ETC. and WE foster kids have all that but some of the people here still complains! OMG! Shutup shutup!. Advice from me, try to be optimistic for once! -___-
      
            Thank you Blogger.com-your such a great friend to vent to. I <3 you.

-Chanda R.

The Most Important Person In My Life.

My sister means the world to me. I trust her with anything and I tell her everything. She is like my escape from life, especially when I am feeling down. I love her so much. She is the only one I know who truly cares, not only for me but for anyone. That's how true she is, she is the best person I know. I look up to her in every way. She's now here in SD again, with her husband and her son. <33333 She has been gone in Germany, the last time I visited her and her family was last year of March and I remembered walking into the door where I say goodbye. I felt like I could not breathe. I can say, I breathe perfectly now. lol Time is just time, you just got to be patient. Don't rush it, cherish it.

Firework!

GA-BA-WA-BA-SHA-BA-YOU! ^.^

My sister's baby shower tomorrow :)
My brother's birthday on Superbowl Sunday :)
-Awesome!

I miss my family! Have not seen them in two weeks, seems like months for some odd reason.

Anyways.....obviously I am in a great mood. After school I went to the Softball Field, came back to grab my Nikon, after that I went bike riding-exhausted! -______-
Went to fatty McDonald's. :) YAY ME!
Hung out with some random guy. I mean really RANDOM! He told me he got a hand job last night. GROSSSsssssss. WTH.
Ok, my grades are good! :) Just want to put that out there.

-__________- blah.

Softball practice has been fun to me because I feel as if I get to get away from my house parents I see everyday and my housemates. Even though Softball practice is still on campus, I feel different. I love Softball. I get to take my anger out  in the batting cage and when I throw the ball, I can almost hear the wind from the ball being thrown so hard. Not literally, I wish.
I've been getting irritated lately with my life. Same people, same routine, same food, same songs playing on my Ipod. I sound ungrateful right now, but I'm really not. I'm getting annoyed by people who I barely even talk to or know.
I feel like walking away from the world.

My Brain is Throbbing.

Right now, at the moment I am in 6th period. Bored like always. I got a print out of my grade just now and its a high C, last quarter it was a low D. So far so good! :) Teachers are leaving, making me feel like it's being planned. Teachers are also missing on the same days to where there are 3 subs in our small school of 150 something kids. Very odd. My understanding, loving, caring teacher name Mr. Walker had just left our school, he taught W. History, Algebra 1, and Geography. So a new teacher has come in name Coach Woods, not even a few weeks...and he's leaving also. I feel like no one is commited to their jobs, or maybe I don't have an idea what their going through in their lives. STILL WEIRD! Kids are getting kicked out and of course because of drugs and fights. DUMB!  >.<

Drama with relationships. FUNNY :)

Anyways, I am just waiting for the weekend. To see my family, newborn baby, Norlene. <333
And ya pretty much.
I really miss my aunt btw.

FAMILY.

 I hate how I can't put all the pictures  that I selected to upload together. lol but here are some pictures.

New baby in the family-Norlene Chanthrea Ros

 You and I forever. :)

 Norlene Chanthrea Ros

 Daddy and you<333

Beautiful, just beautiful.

MVP!

Soooo...I am a little late to post this but I attended the Sports Banquet this week and I got the big trophy. :) Biggest trophy there...... and also it is my first ever. I love it! My trophy is for Volleyball, I got MVP -Most Valuable Player! Woooo hooooo! WORDDDDDDD! Anyways, I am super proud of myself. BTW, Picture of trophy will be posted later...don't be so impatient. lol

Oh, on the other note. My grades are back up! :D
LATTERRRRR...........

Everything has an explanation.

Students here at San Pasqual Academy can never wait to graduate, to get out. I once said, or even more than once that I could not wait to get out in the real world. I am pretty sure everyone who says that are terrified to get out. But there are some where they say they can't wait to party and have their own place. It is not that easy. Not that I experience it before but from what I see and hear, it shows clearly. Students here get too excited, but do they really think their going to get this and that? When I set my goals for when I get out, I do expect the good stuff. The Lamborghini or the corvette, if not...it's the motorcycle. But, I know common sense. You cannot just get it like that, I set my hopes way high but I know it isn't going to happen like that. I got to work for it. Plus, living on my own once I get out trying to find a job, paying for food, electricity. It's not free. Some students who have already graduated have already messed up. Especially, the people who have the chance to go to this college and that. Also, received so many scholarships but throw it all away because they just to live their life partying. I do not believe in that, if I had the chance to go to a 4 year college and work for this person and that. OMG! I would do anything for it, not for myself only. But to help out my family members. They think I am spoiled to have food, a lot of presents for Christmas, money, free clothes, free living. To me, it's not even called spoiled. If I want to be spoiled, just let me be with my family. Being with them makes me feel spoiled because they're are worth more than the gifts, the money. I may be spoiled in somewhat ways but it's just something they give us to make us happy. They buy us this and that, thinking we never had this much gifts and presents or whatever. We didn't. And If I could save my family from paying for food, electricity, and all that. I would do it. Even if I don't get my dream job that I want to do...ill do any job to get that money and give back.
        -"Good people get good things". M.B.

Traditional, I miss.

Oh, things aren't as pernament as they seem.

She's your best friend, your sister, the one you told everything to.

   Even when you have a close friend who you love very much and you always feel like even if you get in a fight with them nothing can ever change it. No matter how mad you are at them. That's a lie, now when I get in fights with her even the most litle things.. I start to feel like we shouldn't keep being friends.

I love her, but I started finding myself not trusting her. Not that she lies or anything. I just feel so distance but it's not her pulling away, it is me. But y won't I stop it?

A Great Day :]

Today was a good day, so good I can barely explain. Everything flowed the way it should everyday. No drama, nobody annoy me, and I am so relaxed. Spend sometime with myself and no HW.
Maybe it's just the weekend, IDK but I like it to stay this way. <3333
I took a long nap when I got home. When I finally woke up I looked outside and the sun was bright and pretty outside, I had a forceful urged of grabbing my Nikon and running outside just to *SNAP SNAP SNAP! and I did! I'll have to upload the pictures tomorrow, well until then see you later! ^.^

Today, I saw the world like this, well I wished....to where it looked fake. -------BEAUTIFUL PICTURE-----

ANYWAYSSS....................I miss my mother. I have not talk to her because she is so busy with work and every time I call she is sleeping, so I do not want to bother her. Hearing her voice and knowing she is doing well makes me okay.

QUOTES THAT HAVE BEEN ON MY MIND:

If you don't get everything you want, think of the things you don't get that you don't want.  ~Oscar Wilde

If you don't think every day is a good day, just try missing one.  ~Cavett Robert 

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